HOUSE OF LOVE

In the foyer, the light switch is covered in strips of tape, deliberately pressed. A man who has learned to ration tenderness might read this as fragility, as if repair were confession. But the switch works. The tape is a courtesy since the switch lives outside the room, not inside it, and she has decided that your light should not be interrupted by a passing hand.


The room has been assembled from pieces of the house. Bed, nightstand, and sheets folded to squared corners. Each object feels slightly displaced, as if it remembers another wall. Nothing matches, yet everything belongs. You glide your hand across the same blanket she once held you when you were small enough to disappear into its fabric. The room has migrated across the house, drawn by her hands alone. You have seen her pause halfway down a hallway, gathering resolve. The labor is visible if you know to look for it. In her house of love, permission for reason is negligible.


On the nightstand, an empty tray waits for the contents of your pockets. Beside it, two towels stand freshly folded: white cotton & a black hand towel. Out of habit, you pull the top drawer to find a chocolate croissant and a bowl of salted cashews. She has anticipated hunger the way one anticipates weather. The thought of you moving through the dark to feed yourself unsettled her more than the effort of preparation.


Your clothes disappear after your shower. She found a detergent made for dark clothes, unwilling to let even the wash water take something from you. The washer, sufficient for the rest of the household, has been deemed unreliable for you. Your shirts are washed by hand, turned gently and wrung without haste. In her house of love, love refuses ease.


Across from the washer lives the stove holding chicken and potatoes under a low broil, a scent belonging to the afternoon. She has prepared for appetite as if it were an event with a schedule. A growing boy, she still thinks. Time rarely persuades her otherwise. When thirst comes, you reach for the blue cup you have used for years, the one whose rim has memorized the shape of your mouth. She watches you with a small, almost guilty smile. There is more. At the base of the cooler lives a second refrigerator, its existence unknown to the rest of the family: sweets reserved for you and her alone, a secret she has never explained and never needed to.


In her house of love, the geography of intimacy lives in corridors only the two of you know how to navigate. Nothing here is extravagant. No grand declarations, no excess. Beyond the chipped paint and creaking hinges live fragments of care, glued together out of broken china.

B4.